ZBrush Tuts + Just do it

Today I've started watching some introductory ZBrush Tutorials. I am starting completely from scratch here as I've never touched ZBrush before in my life.

I talk about motivation a lot and the struggle, but I'm just going to keep doing it. Really, my brain just needs constant reminders to help me get past all the frustration.

Everyday is a new struggle just to start. But starting is the only way to get things done. (duh).

But it's harder than you'd think.

I've read about the science of laziness. The psychology behind why we feel unmotivated especially when it comes to learning something new is because we are afraid of the failure. We're thinking that we're going to fail and therefore don't even want to start. Because our brains think, "well what's the point". This goes for really any situation. Working out is a great example. We feel like even if we work really hard to exercise and eat right, we might not see results and then we would've wasted all that time and energy for nothing.

Now logically, I know this isn't true. I consciously know that if I start now and keep working at it, I will get better and that no matter what, I won't be a failure because I did it. But often times things like anxiety and the mean voices in the back of my head are keeping me from starting.

I think another thing that holds me back is because I really hate leaving projects unfinished. And often times I end up needing to leave a project unfinished because of things like time, life, or simply just losing interest. Regardless, it really, really bothers me. And I think that idea is what also makes me afraid to start things. I feel like if I can't promise myself that I'll finish it, then I don't want to start it. But if I'm being honest, not finishing something is actually WAY better than just not starting something. If I start something and not finish it, well, at least I learned something that very bit that I did do.

I don't know why this has always been a thing with me. I feel like a flaky, unreliable person if I say I'm going to finish something and then I don't even if it's just a project for myself. I always try to hold myself accountable to things.

Sometimes it's a good thing, sometimes it's bad. But I shouldn't let this mentality keep me from simply beginning a project regardless of what it is. I need to stop worrying about the outcome and overthinking it and just start already!